Walt Whitman is cool though

Sometimes with One I Love
Sometimes with one I love I fill myself with rage for fear I effuse unreturn'd love,
But now I think there is no unreturn'd love, the pay is certain one way or another,
(I loved a certain person ardently and my love was not return'd,
Yet out of that I have written these songs).
by Walt Whitman

            "Sometimes with One I Love," that's is an interesting title because it is not definite that the "One" is a human, although it is probable. The first line of the poem has several emotion words in it, "love", "rage", "fear", and "love" again. The fact that love is used twice while the others are just used once, hints towards the fact that this poem focuses more on the love aspect of this problem. Even though Whitman is saying how it makes him angry or fearful, he is still mostly saying that he loves the other person. The denotation of the word rage is: angry fury; violent anger; a fit of violent anger; violence of feeling; desire or appetite; a violent passion. And then the denotations of fear are: a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc; concern or anxiety; reverential awe, especially towards God. First looking ant the word "rage", Whitman is most  likely using the 'violent passion' denotations because he is talking about having an extreme unreturned emotion for someone else, and when he feels that that is not going over too well, he becomes violent. Then with fear he is using the 'a distressing emotion aroused by impending pain'. Whitman feels like he is just going to be hurt by this guy, so he is trying to protect himself by becoming violent. He does not want his heart to get broken, so his brain is taking drastic measures to ensure that that does not happen. Then, the word "effuse" has denotations, when used as a verb, of: to pour out or forth; shed; disseminate; to exude; pour out; to flow through a very small orifice. In this situation, effuse is being used in the 'flow out' sense because Whitman's love for this man is just flowing out of him, its just out there for him to take, he is opening himself up and making himself vulnerable for this guy, so he has to use his violent passion and his fear of pain to protect himself from the misery of being turned down and embarrassed. Then in the next line, it as if Whitman has received some sort of reassuring message from his partner as he says "the pay is one way or another". This could just mean that they both love each other equally, but more interestingly it could mean that both Whitman and his partner are feeling this sense of worry and nakedness about their love. As Whitman was gay back when it was completely not okay, this worry of pain makes a lot of sense because if his partner was not actually gay, then a lot could go wrong for Whitman. However, in the second line he seems to have confirmed the other guy's feelings, allowing him to calm down just a little bit. Then in his two lines of parenthesis, Whitman gives a little back story on the first two lines. In his third line, Whitman still makes it seem like the other guy does not return his love, which contradicts the line before it, but it is probable that his lines are telling a story over time, so the third line is just a recap of what happened before the second line. And then on the last line, Whitman is simply explaining how and why he wrote this poem. By using the word "yet" Whitman is creating a feeling of triumph. He got over all the fear and anger and anxiety and he was able to create something beautiful out of it.